Again

 

 

 

          “I wish that we didn^’t have to go through this,” said William. He staring at the tremors which almost imperceptibly shook him, particularly when he was upset.

           Cathy took hold of his hands and brought them to the side of her face. “I’m afraid of it too, but we have good lives. I wouldn’t trade what we’ve got for anything.”

           The after-effects of the talks weren’t as positive as the Village would have hoped. They were meant to assuage the emotional discomfort which research had shown people experience in their 70’s. The talks were an opportunity for reality realignment. A serene acceptance seemed to come over people once they reached their 80’s, but the preceding decade was as tumultuous as adolescence and maybe more so.

            “I’d trade it,” said William. He didn’t look up into her face. He wasn’t even sure that the words had come out. They had begun as a thought and he didn’t remember making the decision to express it. But when he felt her wince he knew that he had.

            “I’m not sure what you think you could trade me for at this late date.”  She gave him his hands back.

            “That’s not what I mean.”He straightened himself the way he did when he was trying to explain what he was really thinking or when he was trying to rationalize something that he had done. “I mean that I’d trade what we have now for the chance to go back and live it over.”

            That night Cathy dreamt of the family that she had when she was growing up: her uncles, her aunts, her mother and father and her grandmother. She hadn’t dreamt of her grandmother in such a long time and the vibrant dream visited a wonderful holiday dinner that was complete with smells and kisses. Cathy smiled deeply in her sleep and thought that if she could just stay where she was there would never be a need to wake up.

            At breakfast the next morning, she told William about her dream. He listened tenderly and asked questions that helped Cathy remember more and more of it. She remembered Uncle Dutch’s string tie and the way her Aunt Mina put a flower in her hair for special occasions. She wished that she had been able to taste the food. She hadn’t tasted that cooking for almost fifty years and, as William asked about how the table looked, she felt her mouth begin to water. Then she started to cry. William held her in his arms and patted her shoulder. He gave one of her breasts a reassuring squeeze and they exchanged a smile and a giggle.

            Later that afternoon when Cathy said that it was time to go over to the library for their meeting of the residents’ council, William said that he didn’t want to go. Cathy wished that he’d change his mind, so that she wouldn’t have to answer all the questions about whether he was feeling well and whether or not anything was the matter, but she knew how the previous day’s lecture had upset him, so she didn’t try to convince him to come with her.

            William was sitting at his desk. Even though he no longer did much writing. It was where he would go when he wanted to be by himself and think. Cathy rarely came around him when he was at his desk. William switched on his computer and began sliding through menus of information hoping that something would distract him. Absently, he typed in words and did subject and source searches on them. The speed at which the information burst onto the screen made him nauseous.

            When Cathy came home from the meeting, William was still surfing and scanning. Cathy told him that it was getting close to dinnertime and William asked her if she would mind bringing him something back from the kitchen.

            “What are you doing there?” she asked wandering over to the back of his chair.

             “I’m working on something. I’ll tell you about it later.”

             “Are you writing a story?” Cathy’s voice sounded hopeful.

             “No,” said William. “Will you be OK at dinner?”

             “Except that everybody will now be absolutely certain that you’re gravely ill or that you’ve left me,” said Cathy, joking about the second half and annoyed by the truth of the first part of what she was saying.

            “Tell them that I’m working myself up so that I can jump your bones when you get home.”

             It was well after midnight when William finally went to bed. It was like he wanted to absorb everything one more time. Cathy felt his weight and opened her eyes. “What were you doing all this time?”

             “I don’t know. Looking for something without knowing what it is.”

            “You did that for a very long time.”

            “I want it very badly.”

            “What do you think it is that you want?”

            “Something better than memories.”

            “We’ve got each other and we feel pretty good.”

            “We’re old and by both of our honest accounts our lives suck compared to what they were.”

            “You can’t compare things like that.”

            “Why not?”

            “Because it’s pointless.”

            “Cat, that’s just another way of saying we shouldn’t think about things that don’t have nice answers. Tell me the truth; wouldn’t you rather have your life again than your memories? Wouldn’t you like to sit at that holiday table and be with those people for real and dream dreams of the future the way a young person does? Wouldn’t that be better than those dreams that neither of us really wants to wake up from?”

            “I know how you feel,” said Cathy. “You’re not alone with this.”

            “There was a time when neither one of us was frightened of being alone, Cat. And I don’t think that it’s something that we did to each other. It’s this god-dammed aging crap. I hate it. I hate it more than I’ve ever hated anything.”

             As he lay back she gave him her hand. Quietly, she said, “I hate it too.”

            They fell asleep holding hands, which they sometimes did now but had never done when they were younger. This night, they were ready and the dream came to them. It came to them both together. There wasn’t a face or a voice; it was an understanding. At first she was resistant because the idea of losing him at all was overwhelming to her. They looked into each other’s souls in the dream, and they looked into their own souls too. She could see how deeply the wish lived inside of her. He may have expressed it more readily but it was every bit as much there in her. The understanding wasn’t cruel but it did seem final. They could have the years over but they might not have each other. They had to go back to a time before they met. When she agreed there was a trembling in her sleeping eye and a tear rolled down her cheek and dropped off onto the pillow.

            Then she heard her mother’s voice calling her and something childlike moved her toward the voice. William watched and, as she left, he saw her become a young girl who was returning from a day of play. After that William heard a barking dog and saw his aunt sitting on the back porch. He tried to hold onto an image that was the sight of Cathy but in an instant it was gone.

            The Village didn’t talk a lot about people after they died, but everyone thought it so romantic when they found the two bodies, still holding hands.

  Cut

     Beth held the straight edged Gillette razor to the back of her left hand, just above the wrist, a rather innocuous place to begin.Sharon took her razor and held it to the same place on her hand. Judy did the same. Anticipation of an intimate exchange floated among them. They giggled the laugh of sixteen year old girls. Beth’s face tightened; her eyes were dark. She put pressure against her skin from the top of the blade; at first a dent, the blade pressing in. Slowly, with her mouth open and her eyes glowing like dark searchlights, the silver blade slit her flesh. Fresh blood appeared like magic. “Ah!” She slumped forward, hair covering her face. Sharon followed Beth’s lead, and so did Judy. Each of them watched her own blood. Beth lifted an arm into the air, the blood seeping and trickling down her skin. She adored it. Sharon and Judy matched her, studying their patterns with solemnity. Then each of them held a finger to the cut and then to their mouths. They lapped like little kittens. They giggled again. “OK,Sharon, your turn.”

     “Thighs,” announced Sharon. She uncovered her left thigh and held the razor to the inside, close to the top. Beth and Judy imitated her. Each had baby fat thighs. Each had wet blades. Beth’s red hair was full and thick and shone with healthy luster. Her eyeliner was delicate and enhanced the invitation of her face. She looked, as her mother was fond of saying, perfect.

Sharon worshipped Beth with her eyes as she cut, the razor sweeping across her thigh with light touch speed. The slice was long. She raised the blade into the air with the flourish of a Musketeer. Immediate results. “Oh,” said Sharon, slumping forward. Staring down at her thigh, panting. Beth and Judy sliced together.

Judy said, “You do me, Beth.”

Sharon laughed, “You want Beth to do you?”

Judy opened her legs wider and gave a wicked little grin. The girls giggled nervously. Beth scooted over next to Judy. “And you do Sharon.”

“And I’ll do you!” said Sharon, her face bubbly.

“You count, Judy. It’s your turn!” said Beth.

Each of the girls took the other’s left arm and placed it into her lap. Blood was still oozing from the top of their left wrists. At three, they cut each other’s thighs and laughed, as if they were playing with dolls. The tingle of the escaping energy was vibrating in their bodies. Then they studied themselves, transfixed by the webbed pattern, the hot flow, the release.

*                                               *

 

“But why the hell would you do that! What’s wrong with you?” Her father paced back and forth in her room, staring down at the stains on the shag rug.

Beth’s face scrunched into an expression of utter disbelief. “There’s nothing wrong with me! What’s wrong with you?”

Her voice and the look on her face caused a prickly pin feeling on his skin. He wanted to grab her; and hit her; and scream into her that she was ruining her life. That she was ruining his life. That her mother’s life was already unsalvageable. He did none of those things. He had to stay in control. She wasn’t going to listen if he screamed. He knew that. “You can’t do these things to yourself, Beth.”

“Yes I can,” Beth said softly. She looked down at her hand lovingly. It had felt so good! When she cut she was right there, all in the moment. Everything was right in focus, not a hair out of place.

Beth’s mother sat on the edge of the bed silently. She was not crying or saying a word. Joan had positioned herself so that the words of her daughter and her husband traveled across to her. She knew that her husband’s screaming wouldn’t help. “Charley, let’s leave her alone for a little while.”

Beth’s gaze popped up to her mother’s face. She locked eyes with her. They had identical eyes, only Beth’s were brighter and her mother’s were softer. When she was sure they had attached to each other, Beth delivered her line. “Yes Mother, leaving me alone is a really good idea.” The words burnt into Joan like a cigarette being held to her arm and put out. Beth felt good.

Charley screamed, “Why are you such an ungrateful little bitch?”

“I don’t know, Dad, but thanks for caring, OK!”

Charley left the room and Joan tried hard to manage a smile at her daughter but couldn’t. She reached out and took her hand. Beth’s palm was dry and her hand was limp and unfeeling. “Can’t you tell me what’s hurting you?”

The girl’s voice was a low and intense whisper. “You’re hurting me. He’s hurting me. Everything is hurting me. I hate my life. Ok? Is that what you wanted to hear?” Her lips were trembling and she felt held down all of a sudden. She got up from the bed and went to her bathroom. She shut the door. Joan wanted to say leave the door open, but she didn’t say it.

 

*                                                *

 

 

Charley and Joan sat at the analyst’s office, holding containers of coffee. “We just don’t know what to do,” said Charley. “If she was using drugs, everyone in the world would be there to help us.” Charley leaned forward with his knees on his elbows. Joan and Moyra were watching him, knowing that he wasn’t finished. “We called the crisis management center. We took her up there, and they made us feel like we had done something wrong. She winds up laughing and joking with the counselor, who looks like he understands her a hell of a lot better than he understands us. He winds up telling us that sometimes kids play dangerous games and that he’s sure that Beth is really OK. She’s not OK. She’s sick. She’s been sick for a long time, and we can’t get her any help. She won’t come to see you anymore. She says that you are part of a Christian conspiracy to make everyone ashamed of themselves.”

“Which is strange, considering that she knows I’m a Jew,” said Moyra.

There was short, mirthless laughter among them. Joan was staring at Moyra, waiting. Wanting for her to say, this is what we should do here… The lines around Joan’s eyes were getting deeper and showing an intricate pattern of their own. She saw them in the mirror that morning and drew her skin back from her cheekbones to spread them away. Her skills with makeup had improved with her need to use it, she thought. Then she was back in the room again and her heart was hurting, and her daughter was off someplace doing she didn’t know what. She couldn’t remember the last time her husband had kissed her.

“At some point, she will bottom out,” said the psychologist. She shifted in her chair and adjusted the flaps on her blazer. The office felt warm today. The light was glowing behind the closed blinds. Her plants were reaching up for it. “At some point, she may very well have to be medicated.” She had known these people for six years and they seemed bright and caring and helpless. “At some point she may very well need to be placed in a hospital.”

“Maybe she should be in a hospital now,” said Charley. His hands were clasped in front of his mouth. He was studying Moyra.

“That may very well be the case,” said Moyra, “but you would have a hard time convincing a psychiatrist of that right now.”

“Why? She was cutting herself. Jesus!”

“Because she does not appear to be a danger to herself or to anyone else right now. The law is very much in her favor. She would need to request hospitalization, in my opinion, unless she did something that was more harmful to herself.”

Charley said, “That sucks, Moyra.”

“It is a set of laws designed for the protection of the patient’s rights. They had been widely abused in the past, particularly the rights of children.” Moyra found herself smiling at Charley as he tried to nod in agreement. He was a good looking man in his early forties. He was fit. Moyra particularly liked the way that he dressed. His fabrics were soft and hung about him very well. Nothing was ever too tight or too loose on his body. She could see that he took some care in the way he presented himself

“So what can we do?” said Charley, his hands flat now, palms spread open.

“We have to wait,” said Moyra. She watched Joan’s face collapse with her words.

*                                                        *

     Beth was sitting cross-legged on her bed talking on the phone. She was staring at the thin, white slice on her thigh. “My dad is mad because he doesn’t want to have to be bothered dealing with me, and now he’s gotta. Too bad. And my mother is pathetic. She wants to understand.”

“It felt so good when you did it to me, Sharon, better than when I did it myself”

“I wanted you to do me too,” said Sharon, “but it was Judy’s idea, and, well, you know, Sharon paused. “What do you think your parents are gonna do, Beth?”

“What they always do. Charley will scream and then try to be reasonable. Joan will suffer. She loves to do that. They will talk to everybody and come back and say that we should try again to understand each other.”

“Yup, why can’t we all get along?” said Sharon- doing her imitation voice.

The girls giggled.

*                                                        *

 

 

Joan sat at her vanity in front of a large glass of water and two bottles of pills. She had taken her dose of Valium for the morning, but it hadn’t calmed her today. She had taken the first Xanex an hour ago and only felt it work for a few minutes. Now, she shook two more Xanex out of the amber bottle. They were white cylinders, tiny actually. She felt their hardness in her palm and thought… they’re so small. Then she swallowed both of them with a wash down of tap water. She waited for the fifteen minutes they took to kick in. Sometimes it didn’t take that long.

Beth’s music was a muffled blare that forced its way through two closed doors. Joan felt herself bounced along on the steady bass. It was thumping just like a heartbeat. She wanted to lie down and put her head back and close her eyes and vanish. She wanted to float and feel whole and desirable.  She wanted to hear her child call her mommy and be able to turn the little girl’s frown to a smile with the simplest of actions: a hug and a smile, a band aide, a song like the one that she used to sing to her. She wanted to walk around her bedroom in her panties. She wanted to watch her husband become distracted by the sight of her and have him come up from behind her and bend her over the vanity the way that he had done once and the way she had dreamed of him doing ever since.

The blare of the music seemed to be fading as she lay on the bed. She wondered how she had come to be a weak person. What had happened to her? Was it the way that she loved Charley and Beth that made her weak? She had done what had come naturally to her. Did that mean that she was naturally weak? Should weak people not love other people?

The Xanex was working. She felt the pressure at the base of her skull disappear and felt the warm strokes of relaxation moving across her body like a massage. She drifted into the snuggle of the soft bed and let it embrace her. The lines fell from her face.

*                                                        *

     At first the phone was a soft, distant voice, but the second ring made it louder, and she reached out a lazy hand and lifted the receiver. Slowly, she brought it to her ear and heard voices.

“Thank you for calling me back, Moyra There are some things that I really need to speak with you about” Joan’s mouth said Charley but no sound came out.

“It’s OK, Charley. You must feel that you can always call. You are in a very delicate position. Where is Joan?”

“She’s upstairs. She took too many pills again. She left the bottles open on her vanity. She’s just withdrawing further and further every day.”

“I could see that when the two of you were in my office. You are the source of strength for both of them now. And that’s OK because you are a very strong man,”

Joan’s mouth opened again but no sound came out.

“I feel as if I can accomplish anything after I have been in your office, but then I have a job and I get distracted and that feeling evaporates. I get distracted by the moment.”

“We need to talk about ways that you can maintain a perspective that allows you not to be drained that way. They will both try to drain you, Charley.”

“I feel that way. I feel them draining me, and it feels as if I should let them because they need me.”

“Charley you have to do what you need to do for yourself. Take what you wish to take for yourself.”   There was a pause and then a smaller voice, a low soft voice. “Whatever you wish to take for yourself is there for you, Charley.” Joan’s eyes opened wider. Her face felt as stiff as a mask.

“I need to see you without anyone else around,” said Charley.

“Do you wish to come into the office or …” It was the soft voice again

“Could we meet for a drink?” said Charley.

That might be more comfortable,” said Moyra. “There’s a bar called Henessey’s about three miles from where I live on the north side of town.”

“I know Henessey’s,” said Charley.

“I can meet you there now. I’ve just finished my last session.

“I’ll be there in a few minutes. We can talk then.”

Joan felt as if she had been beaten up. Her stomach hurt. Her face was stiff. She did not think that she could stand. The music had stopped in Beth’s room. She heard Charley go out the front door and heard the car starting.

Beth and Sharon were lying very close to each other on the bed. The cd was over but neither of them wanted to move. While the music was on, they had begun to touch the white lines on each other’s thighs, and now their hands were inside each other’s shorts, almost afraid to move. And then they kissed. They kissed the way they kissed boys, but better. They were easy on each other’s lips and long in their embrace. Their tongues were wet electric wires that shocked other parts of their bodies.

Beth began to tug Sharon’s shorts down. Sharon responded by wagging her tongue wildly in Beth’s mouth. Soon both of their bottoms were off and they were inside of each other with needy fingers.

When Joan opened the door to Beth’s room she saw her daughter’s ass humping back and forth on Sharon’s hand. She stood there without saying a word. When the girls sensed a presence, they looked up in panic. Joan’s eyes were glazed.

“Mom, we were just pretending,” said Beth.

They disengaged and were frantic in their efforts to get their clothes back on. Joan couldn’t move. She stood there, a soundless, pathetic statue. It took all of her strength to close the door.

Wobbling back to her bedroom, she thought, I have no family.  

Underneath the sink was a package of old razor blades that Charley liked to use before he took up his affair with electricity. Joan took out a shiny blade and sat at her sink staring at it. It looked new and held a sense of promise in the glint of its smile. The blood moved through her veins like a heavy ribbon of weight. She wanted to be released from it.

Gina’s Problem

     “Mom, are you ever going out of the house again?
     Gina could see that Tommy was angry. His face had a familiar scowl, the one she always associated with spinach because it was with strained spinach that she saw it for the first time. He was stomping away now, shaking his head in affected disgust, his ponytail bouncing out an admonition. When she heard the dishes begin to slam against the counter, she turned to her screen and typed …RTI bbl… (real time interruption be back later) and closed out the window. Her modem informed her that she had been on-line for 4:35:17, but she knew that wasn’t really the case. There had been a restart to activate some newly acquired software. Reluctantly she moved her mouse to click on disconnect.
     “Tommy, what is the problem?”
     The fourteen-year-old boy looked up with an exaggerated snarl. “I’m hungry and you don’t give a shit! That’s the problem!”
     Gina felt an rt pang. She was uncomfortable with it. As she walked across the kitchen floor, her mind typed,* slowly walking across the kitchen floor * She moved to her son and put her arms on his shoulders. * extending my arms and embracing Tommy* Then she felt him shrug her off.
     “Jesus, Mom. I just wanted something to eat!”
     “I’ll fix you something.”
     * his face pouting * “What?”
     “How about hot-dogs and eggs?”
     * Tommy smiling * “OK.”
     She had just begun to scramble the eggs when she heard Merry wake up crying from her nap. “Mommy will be right there,” she said. The crying got louder. Gina worked faster, speeding up her mechanics.* a trickle of sweat running down her forehead…*
An hour later she was back into her network, feeling better, having had an rt exp, and feeling like she had earned her way back into the room. She connected at a slick speed and saw her handle flash onto the screen:
     Damsel enters the room….
     Brown eyed girl says: Hello Damsel * smile *
     Pierre winks at Damsel: there she is …the woman of my dreams
     Alec nods knowingly: Supermom is back without so much as a hair out of place
     Damsel blushes: good evening everyone *smiles demurely*
     This room was a general chat area that was populated by adults. Not part of the AOL or Microsoft networks, it was included in the geocities complex called The Paris Cafe. Gina particularly liked it because there were people, mostly from Quebec and Montreal, who sometimes conversed in French. It gave her a chance to get in some practice.
Damsel was known for her wit and her wisdom. She was also known as someone who had been around the cyber block and would not be taken by surprise. In such a role she was often a counselor for newbee’s.
     Her fingers clicked across the keyboard at the speed of a screen flicker. Gina was multitasking. She activated her Skype line and found out which of her circle of friends might be online elsewhere. She shifted into an observer’s role at the Cafe and minimalized the screen on her monitor. She rechecked her other dialogue boxes and flipped through some messages. Things had happened while she was off line.
     Her yahoo messenger icon was blinking to inform her of a message: Damsel, he says that he’s confused and that we need to take a break from each other * tears flowing * It hurts and I need to talk to you…Sultry Wench.
     Gina’s heart was squeezed. Sultry was one of her best friends and the affair was young and hot, and she had tried to warn Sultry to go slow because it was following a familiar pattern. She saw that Sultry was off-line and dismissed the urgency of the situation. There were other things to do.
     Much later in the night, after Merry had been given her bottle and put down, after her son Nick had gone out and come home with beer on his breath that Gina decided not to confront, after she finished reading her self-assigned Shakespearean history, after she found herself doing some work research at the Internet Business Camera Data Base,  

     Damsel met Browning in a private chat room.
     Slowly raising her ankle length skirt for his kisses, which she applied with her moistened fingers, she rubbed her clitoris and moaned for her lover. One handed typing passed between them and the orgasm built to a sweet intensity until she broke loose and
typed
     ….mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm…. to let him know of her release. He responded with an orgasm of his own, and they held each other tenderly, staring out of their windows looking at the same moon and the same stars from 500 miles apart. Then they said good night and Gina crept through her rooms checking her children, and finally she turned off the monitor for the night. In the morning she would have to work very hard on the two web sites that her customers expected. But for now she felt peaceful and content.
     The doorbell was startling. She had been hard at work for hours and was just finishing the second of the websites. The customer was there to pick up the work she had completed had only spoken to her on the phone, professing his lack of knowledge of computers and explaining that he had been reluctant to advertise on the net. Gina was able to easily convince him of the multiplicity of advantages that came along with online
advertisement. He was a little early, but she was prepared for him. Wearing a long black skirt that buttoned up the front and showed off her long legs and her slender waist, Gina answered the door. Her cotton blouse was thin and gave her an airy feel.
Mark, from The Mansfield Funeral Parlor, was a good looking man. He was tall and had a friendly face. His brown mustache had happy ends that curled up and seemed to say hello and give him a permanently uplifting smile. Gina was aware of his eyes on her as they walked over to her work station. He said yes to a cup of coffee. He sauntered alongside her in a way that she found delightful…* walking together through my rooms * Thinking that I could just reach up and take his hand and that he would let me have it without so much as a moment of awkwardness… Her mind posted her body typed out reports of her feelings.
     It took her well over an hour to explain all of the anchors and links that she had embedded into his site. Everything was there, from pictures of caskets and pics of the viewing rooms to pricing information about additional services. There were examples of
guest books and memorial cards. It was interactive. In short, a customer could plan the entire service without having to come into the office. Or a loved one, too bereaved to go to the parlor, could see it all on line while other relatives communicated with that person on the phone or on line and made the appropriate decisions. It was all there, right down to a picture of Mark, appropriately attired in a dark suit with a comforting though not jovial expression on his face.
     “Well, I’ll tell you true, you’ve done one heck of a job here, Miss. Hennessey.”
     “Call me Gina, please,” she said smiling. “I just put it together, Sir. All of this was in the materials that you supplied, but I do believe that it extends an additional service to your customers.” She paused wondering if she should go ahead with the results of last night’s research. “There is one more thing that I would like you to consider?’
      “And what would that be”
     “Well, for a fair price we could have cameras placed in the room and offer direct online access to people who could not actually attend the wake.”
     At first Mark seemed jolted by the idea, but then he slowly nodded and said,
     “Can you show me what you mean?”
     As Gina took him through an explanation of the technology that she had researched for him, she began to see the advantages dawning on him. The equipment could be paid for from its own uses in a year. It was a one-time cost and it allowed them to offer what no other parlor in the area had. His smile was growing more flexible and she could see his eyes surfing over her face and her body with soft, unobtrusive glances.
     Tommy crashed in through the back door. “Mom, is that guy still here? Merry wants to have lunch!” Tommy shouted his question before he entered the room.
     “Mr. Mansfield, this is my son Tom.”
     “Hi,” he said, dismissing the man instantly. “How long are you gonna’ be?”
     Mark smiled at Tommy and at Gina. “I wonder if you would let me treat you and your children to some lunch,” he said.
     …Damsel blushing…”Oh thank you so very much, but I think it would be more of a production than you realize. Tommy, I’ll just be a few minutes.”
     “Fine, but if she starts crying I’m outta here, Mom.”
     As Tommy walked out of the room, Gina felt a slight pressure of Mark’s knee pressed into her thigh. She did not move.
     “Perhaps we could meet for dinner and you could go over this for me again,” Mark said
     “It’s very hard for me to get out,” Gina said.
    “Well, I’ll tell you what. I have a niece who is an excellent baby-sitter. If I send her over and you are comfortable with her, what do you say?”
     *blushing wildly …heart throbbing * I’d say that you were most resourceful, Sir.”
     Gina made the date. Mark left. She was flushed. Her cheeks were burning. She went into the back yard and relieved Tommy. He was angry again. Gina didn’t care. “I was working, Tommy.”
     “Yeah, well, that guy was working you, Ma!” Tommy stomped off.
     Gina held Merry in her arms and said, “Mommy’s gonna get us some Macdonalds.” The little girl smiled.
     Later that evening: Damsel enters the room
     Browning kisses her hand: You look radiant tonight, my Damsel
     Sultry Wrench shouts: Honey, am I glad to see you!!
     Gina settled in to ask her friends what she could do about the problem of her
latest rti.